Pleas read help me????

Hello thanks fo opening ma question well i live in Kuwait and when i came here i don't have friends or anything and i have a very very very low self esteem and am always afraid to meet new ppl cuz i will say like what if they hate me when they know who i really i am.ppl who don't know me think that am cool and confidence but when they talk to me i don't know what they see in ma face i can see that when they talk to me they change and they don't have respect fo me after they talk to me like one boy he came and say hi how are you then i don't know what he saw in ma face when i talk then he changed and ma sister every one loves here and i really want that to me i feel like n 1 in this word love me i hate ma self sometimes i cry alone fo houres i even try to commit suicide but then they save me i wish sometimes to be invisibles so what can i do pleas help me i really hate it pleas.